and life goes on....

Moonlight by jamespicht on flickr

I want to write here. I do. I think about it daily. However, my life has changed so much since I began this blog that the stories no longer make sense on any level of continuity. My stories now are intensely personal and anonymity would be virtually impossible were I to write about my daily thoughts and journey.

I'm leaving this blog up because I think it has had a lot of useful purposes for many others and because there a lot of links from other sites that I don't want to dead end. I can still be reached through my email, but I only check it every few weeks. Still, if you write, I will respond.

Scratching my head over what to do with Sophie in the Moonlight has not been a fruitful exercise, so for now I'm leaving it as is. Maybe I'll start a haiku blog just for the fun of it. If I do, I'll put a link in here somewhere. No guarantees. But I think I'd like that. Or maybe another anonymous blog (under a different name) about my journey now. If you'd need to find me because you were on a similar path, I'm sure you would.

For now, I need to concentrate on friends and family and my sons. I'll resume navel-gazing at some point, but it's not high on my list of priorities at the moment.

Thanks to all of you who followed me on this segment of my journey. I couldn't have done it without you.

Much Love to All of You and Goddess Speed on Your Own Journeys.

Yours,

Sophie

 

Unknown People Can Be So Profound

Photo by boskizzi on flickr

Been a while. Sorry about that. More later.

BUT, I've got a goody for some of you. I went to San Francisco 2 weeks ago and all I brought back was a lousy case of pneumonia - and some cannolis (Mara's in North Beach GO THERE!) and some yummy coconut buns (Anna's Bakery on Clay St. - ABC -get it?) Sadly, I can't share the cannoli and coconut buns with you. I would if I could. However, I can share this little gem of a quote that I found on a card at the airport and Had. To. Get. I'm feeling better enough now to share.

Ready?

Masquerading as a normal person day after day is exhausting. -Unknown

Unknown, I tip my hat to you. Thank you for getting me, indeed for getting so many of us.

Tween Hangs Out in His Liminal Space

Mama Mirabelle a BBC/National Geographic production

Two boys and ice cream

chilling after dinner watch

Mario's last show.

(Luigi has just

fifteen minutes of screen time 

remaining in day.)

"Hey, honey," says Mom,

"you need to finish your work -

or no DS time."

"Work's done; DS - nah: 

I wanna watch to see what they're 

teaching kids these days."

Big brother's disdain

for the five years sibling lacks?

Tossed. Child within bonds.

The Truth of Being One with One

Light Angel by magic_fella on flickr 

I wish to live in

a comfort zone - my thoughts and

feelings all my own.

"How are you doing?"

such a bland phrase. Want answers?

Just look at my face.

I don't want to say,

yet the question stays the same.

From me: "Not so good."

Folks fluster at truth.

They want to hear "Fine, thank you."

But I'm not playing.

I want to be true

to self, to integrity.

So I say what is.

My comfort zone. Soft, plush,

all my own. Autonomy,

my lush ideal.

I will make it real.

Tiny, little lush space filled

with prisms, sparkles, stars.

I owe it to self.

Nothing I want more than to

be my comfort zone.

Site Will Be Re-Opening. YIPPEE!!

Random-Onics "Emotibag" Paper Bag for Your Head by OnyxB on Flickr

Well, it's been a looooonnnnngggg time since I've written here. I've missed bloglandia terribly, but there were some issues concerning my anonymity that needed to be addressed and made me shut down the blog for 10 months. Those of you familiar with my writing will notice some things are missing and some topics will no longer be discussed. Bummer for me, but necessary to protect my family.

I also apologize for not advertising my visits to many of your blogs, but I really really needed to go under the radar for a while and didn't want to leave any trace of me anywhere.

Okay, that's all been said. I have a bit of cleaning up to do around here and will be posting soon. Once I realized I was able to do some administrative things around here with the new Blogger interface, I knew I'd be able to write again. I've lots to say and I'm so so so excited to be able to blog again. I cried for days after I changed the privacy settings and mourned the loss of my creative outlet and my friends - my support system and my small place in your support systems.

I'll see you soon. The boys will be back in school next week and I'll have time to be here. With you. Where I belong and where, as Cloe pointed out, I am most happy.